Self Love

Self love...

I noticed a shift within myself, like something clicked and an old way of thinking just fell away...I thought if I take away what I do for work, the degrees I have, what I look like, the shape and size of my body, the clothes that I wear, the material things I have... am I still worthy and deserving of love? Am I whole and complete just as the day I was born? Is love within me, of me and all around me? And I realized that I had been walking through my life with those "things" leading, as if to say that those were the qualifiers, the things that prove that I am a worthy and deserving person and if people don't like those things, or if I don't have this thing or that thing then I am flawed and in some way undeserving. And, for the first time, I can say and actually believe that this is simply not true!!

I did a thought experiment and in my imagination, I took all of those things away, stripped myself of everything external that I believed defined who I was and how deserving I was and really looked at myself, curious to see what I would find, what would be left after all of those 'things' were gone...and what I found was my essence, my truth, who I am regardless of what I have externally...and that is love! I found my way home, to more fully know and embrace myself, to know my heart's desires and my soul's yearnings and have begun to move forward in my life with this leading the way! I am deserving...just because...period. I am enough... I am love. And those qualifiers are just added bonuses that are like spices in a soup - some people will like the spices and some will not and this does not mean that it is a less deserving soup nor does it negate it's essence of being a soup!

Love, Kristina Marie