Co-creating

During meditation the other day, I was distracted and trying to bring my focus back to my breath unsuccessfully. I then thought of this short video clip from Oprah Winfrey I had just watched where she says "what is the next right step". And I took that question into my meditation. I could feel myself go straight to my head and try to figure out what that next step was. When I realized that I was doing this and another part of me said "take a breath, relax and make space for the answer to come through". So I took a breath and relaxed into my body.

I then had the idea of going through a short journey, so I chose a space that is real to me in real life - a waterfall in Arizona. I imagined myself going into the water, went under and swam down into the depths of the water and came to a small room, cave like. There were three chairs and the chairs were glowing a golden yellow/white. The chairs were set up in a triangle formation and in the middle was a stone globe shape with four pillars for legs - like a large crystal ball table but it was all dark brown stone. I sat down in a chair and then asked the question again "what is the next right step". I looked to the other two chairs - the one to my left was a female and it felt like archetypal mother, the chair to my right was a male - the archetypal father. I could see the mother figure in her entirety however could not see the face of the father - it was blurry and dark from his shoulders and up.

I paused, took another deep breath to allow space for the knowledge to come through and found myself looking to both the parental figures for the answers. I could feel that yearning for them to provide the answers for me. They both looked at me and said nothing. I realized they were waiting for me to do something different. I then became self-consciously aware that I was looking to them for answers, from a place of powerlessness. And this knowing came to me- that I needed to shift into my power. That I need to bring myself fully to the table on an equal level. They are wanting me to show up, take ownership, bring what I have to share and co-create from this place. This is to say - I need to believe in my abilities and my wisdom and bring myself from the place of initiate.

And once I had this realization, I noticed that both of the parental figures had angel wings. And once I shifted out of powerlessness and into my own power as initiate, I too had wings. So it was a reminder for me that I have the skills and the initiations to approach my life from this perspective. The place of ownership, the place of accountability and the place of maturity. And from there I have the facility to create my life with the guidance and help and wisdom of those that I seek answers from but from a place of co-creation and in combination with what I bring to the table.

Love,

Kristina Marie